When you are going through the dark nights of your soul

and no one else can understands you

the deepest pain of feeling alone

the overwhelming sorrows that pierces your heart

and aches till it bleeds..

the uncontrollable tears that flow like a river

the series of memories that runs

like snap shots in your photographic mind

the heaviness of your next breathe after a long sigh

the angry outburst that screams like a roaring Lion

the absence of your face right beside my bed

the sweet voice that calls me “hummingbird”

the arms that held me tight

the comfort knowing that I’m safe

the sweet delight of your cooking

the 2 dozen red roses just because

everywhere I look is an empty space

an empty heart, an empty mind

if these are the price for your chaos

I would gladly take your chaos

and take it as my peace!

for these heartaches will not give me peace

but chaos…so your chaos is my peace!

loving you unconditionally:)

HUMMINGBIRD!

Life is like driving in a fast lane, making sure you wear your seat belt because in case of accident you will be “safer” than the latter. Guess what? life is not permanent, it has no certainties and it’s not accident free! We are here physically temporarily living in this physical dimension we call earth. Tonight when you go to sleep you can die and will never wake up to touch your loved ones or your own physical body anymore. How’s that for a wake up call! I’m quite feeling DRASTIC right at this moment because I sense humanity never seems to listen when you are talking about “spiritual stuff” they push it away of shove it because everyone is in denial of the truth. They would rather hear how’s the show Gossip Girls drama went on last night rather than talking about what is truly important right now at this “crucial times” in elevating our consciousness to help our Mother Earth stay here and be safe with us.

This is what I’m all about, helping to raise our consciousness about what we are doing as awake conscious human being to each other and what is the rippling cause effect of this to us and the environment that we live in. Are you awake yet? there is no time to lose…wake up for goodness sake! Live the EGO behind and live light! Fluff your wings and fly to the nearest station of love…angelically speaking:)

I just attended a lecture from Paco Alarcon- Kahan and he talked about his info regarding the Mayan 2012, it was really awesome listening to him as he resonates with what I believe as well. He decoded the secrets about what is really is going to happen and what is happening now as we speak. I’m going to for more lectures this weekend and will be doing more studies with him. This is quite exciting for me and the work that I’m putting together for the EVOLUTION of CONSCIOUSNESS.

Our paths are here take your choice and live impeccably with your words, thoughts and deeds! This will create love and peace within your being and help others to do the same. The lesson is leading towards COMPASSIONATE WISDOM and UNITY. When we believe that we are all one, we become one. Together let’s build a foundation that is not build on control and separation but in oneness and freedom of spirit!

Namaste!

Teza

What is it at work that makes you gossip about other people? It would be a lot better if we all have this ground rule on not to talk about other people if you are not going to say something nice. This will automatically shut a lot of backstabbing and gossips. When I go home after a days work, I reflect on things that have been said and things that I should have said in defense of the other party. I realized that I’m in this circle of co workers to help my self, and how is that? By choosing not be a participant of this malicious gossip. It takes a lot of discipline to do this. First I have to be aware that this is not good for me and toxic to my soul.

When I hear something negative right away I have to be aware that this is a red flag for me to say nothing and change the topic or even just say “I have no comment”. I can also tell the other person that may be we should change ourselves and start being nice to others by not talking about them when they are not here. I find that most complaints are about them. They are not happy about themselves and so they find something to talk about just because they are empty and unfulfilled. I believe when someone has a conflict it has to be resolve right away and not to wait for this to be bottled up inside of you and then it explodes.

When I have a misunderstanding with a co worker I usually approach and resolve the conflict. I like taking it to heart level and not ego or power trip on who’s right or wrong. This way I build trust and openness toward the person. In my experiences I find that there is a lot of mistakes along the way because of not being able to face the situation. When you hide anger or resentment it becomes an easy escape to gossip about this particular person. But when you open your heart and express your feelings the conflict usually resolves. For me one should be able to allow this open communication and see that everyone is entitle to this voice.

The most common problem that occurs is about insecurity of some one’s being, which I find in almost cases. For some reason people feel that what they do is who they are and becomes very defensive and sensitive when someone steps on what they do. There is a sense of territorial rights and one becomes protective about this false identity. I’m the total opposite, my intention at work is to bring harmony and teamwork. I believe when someone is aware of their being there is a sense of peace and does not attract this kind of situations. One should remember that when conflicts arise, that they are the magnet and it will help when they take the time to reflect. There is a space where they can go and learn the lesson that this situation is calling for.

Our work place would be a better place if everyone would take the responsibility to choose peace and understanding with one another. Why would you like to come to a place where there is chaos and feelings of not wanted? When you can turn it around and build a place of love.

Today I woke up with a question in my mind “where is time?” I’ve always wondered how humanity exist and invented time frame, this is what we call linear time, meaning the past, present and future. Which really does not make sense because, they are just fleeting moments from our memories created in our head and realized that this is the only moment we have, it’s the present moment.

When we live inside our head, we literally live in this illusion of time. We find ourselves thinking about the past, and sometimes creating future plans to fill us with empty moments. We are not in this present moment living mindfully on what we are doing. Busy occupied with daily tasks and things to accomplish that we forget that the most important relationships are build in experiencing not on planning and thinking of what the other person did in the past.

Surrounded by my family members in this reunion I’m astounded with all the past memories we had and how each and every ones lives differ from each others perspective. Being the youngest of ten, I grew up and seen a lot of different styles of living from my siblings. There are some victims and continue to choose to be victims, there are some whose lives are based on being rich but forgetting that intimacy with once partner is far more fulfilling than materialism. I realized that balance is the best way to cope in this dance of life. Celebrating the 90′th birthday of my father as we call him Papa, I’ve come to know that I feel blessed that he had fulfilled his soul contract with mine and that the lessons of forgiveness and unconditional love that I signed in for was fulfilled in this lifetime. I look at him and know that in my heart there is no more pain and hatred but only love that transcends human understanding.

Sometimes I wonder why a soul would choose to be in this particular group of souls? Then I know the answer is because we all agreed to be a part of this soul group and that we all signed for lessons in life that we agreed to experience in this lifetime. I feel blessed to know and feel this message because it brings closure to my pain and transforms me on how I live this lifetime. I choose to empower others through this soul knowing and will live time as eternal here on earth. My soul and body knows the truth, that this lifetime is filled with love and service of self to others. To share what I was given and know that my time is not stuck in the past, or busy with plans for future but truly living in loving moments with people that have come and agreed to be in my soul group.

Time is not in your head, live with all knowing that every given moment is a choice and that particular choice of living life with love, is what will create the times of your life. Live as if the book of your life is already written and that the author is you. Will you write a story of love or pain?

The last time I wrote I noticed it’s been a month already well I guess I was taking my time and space to just be with the flow of my everyday moments…my brother passed away and my time stopped. It was a moment of recollection and reflection on what is important in this lifetime. I was given a chance to be an active participant in his sufferings and I find that I am blessed because he chose me to be his confidant in these times.

Once there was a time that I had a vivid vision of his calling when the angels came to my dream and told me how he was suffering and that he wanted God not to take him because his children needs him. I woke up with this vivid vision of a portal in heaven and the angels surrounding and a voice from this man telling God his sufferings. I can’t grasp this emotional dream and when my phone rung and it was my brother I knew then that this dream was about him. We had a lengthy conversation and he asked me to help him release his sufferings because deep inside he wanted to die, that he can’t take any longer the physical pain of his body. I told him to spend the rest of his days with his family and let them know that they are loved. To let go of the fear of death and to allow the peace in his last days. It wasn’t easy giving this piece of advice because it just confirms to me that I’m losing my brother. But then he needed my affirmation that everything is going to be alright. When I talked to him he was at peace and totally believed that he was in the presence of angels.

The last time I talked to him he was able to see my other siblings and was contented with his life. I was his kidney donor but that never materialized because he was too fragile to have the kidney transplant. The lesson that I learn from losing someone is that there is only this moment you have to create love with your family and friends. If we don’t take the time to do it now we will just wake up one time and realized that it’s our last day. Or we may never even have the time to know this is it…we have come to the last days of our journey.

Life truly is short, enjoy the times you are given and don’t waste it with things that are not important. What truly matters is the love that you create and feel in your heart. The things that are not seen are tangible to the heart and they are the things that truly matters at the end. This is the only time that matters now, not the past for they are gone and not the future for they are illusions. We are here to be aware of these times that are given to us, spend them with love, joy and peace in your heart. Whatever you do, do it with these virtues and you find that your life is filled with these times that are not wasted but blessed and fulfilled.

Namaste!